Hello kids,
How's it going? So this weekend...sucked. Like MAJOR SUCKAGE. Ok first of all my Mom made me eat EVERYTHING in sight. So I probably gained so much weight this weekend. : ( Ok bad part number dos. I went to a party Saturday night. Got drunk. The hockey guy texted me, long story short I spilled my guts to him about how I still have feelings for him and he never responded. I woke up the next morning not really remembering it and then going back and reading the texts and started balling. I just want to like...die or something. Ok silver lining, if there is one, is that now I am trying so hard to not to feel anything and not to get emotional that I am putting all my energy into school and weight loss. I am now back on the 300 a day diet and burning 2100 calories a day. That will get me down 30 (hopefully) by spring break and then that hockey guy will see me and boy will he be sorry! He liked me when I was heavier, so I wonder what he will think then! My new best friend from now on is caffeine. like BFFL haha. Keeps my hunger away AND keeps me going. DOUBLE BONUS!!!!! Anyway. I hope you all stay strong and stay focused! I am sending you all positive energy! OMG this is a sign from the universe! Just as I was typing this over weight girl sat at a table next to mine with BURGER KING!!! I am sitting here drinking espresso. IT'S A SIGN!!!!!!!! The universe it telling me to stay strong and even giving me an example of why I should stay strong. THANK YOU UNIVERSE!!!!! How awesome is that? Gotta love it!